Not every girl is as lucky as raine. They don't have two strong arms that hold her or set her straight, or pick her up when she is broken and does not care whether she still breathes come the mornings dawn. raine is not talking about her Master, she is talking about her brother.

A brother's love is something that is so uniquely different from all other forms of love that it is perhaps the most difficult to describe the feelings that raine gets when she thinks of her brother. He has singularly become, in his own brash way, a very special part of raine's life and her heart. There has been nights when raine just could not make it another step on Gor without feeling somehow that everything was against her--he was there. There have been times when she was broken down to the very soul of her--he was there. At times, raine knows, she has been his biggest pest and he just ignored her until he felt she had it together. Every step of the way he has been there and put raine back together and made her laugh through her tears and her heartache.

Sisters are a very important family group on gor. We listen to one another and we hold one another in good times and bad, but there is a unique difference in a brother's love. He is not there just to help you through things. He is there to make you better-to make you stronger. He is there to kick your rumpus when you are simply having a pity party and he is there to cover you up at night when Master is not home. He will provide you insight on men and Masters specifically because he is male and thinks as a male would and not a female.

raine told her Master when they first moved to Harigga, that she was going to make sirus become her friend. It took her eighteen months.  Little did she know that she would come to actually need him. He once joked that Master needed to "ween" raine off of him. Maybe that was true. raine tends to worry about people to much and if he is not at home, raine worries a little and misses him but will not bother him.

raine has a brother, who is not her chain brother, but is as true and as close as a blood brother. We fight. We bicker. We flirt. We care. We hold our home together when at times it is the last place we feel we should be. raine would give her life for his instantly.

If you are ever as lucky to have a brother such as raine's, say thank you ten times a day to the Pk's that brought him into your life and into your world. For there is no more a unique relationship than that of a brother and sister and there is nothing that can ever repay or replace a brother's love.

There are those that think raine's brother is mean. To those raine says eat dirt. They never took the time to know him, never pushed through the barriers that he erects to protect himself. Nobody ever cared enough. It was much easier to ridicule in the shadows and attempt to make him feel inferior. And he, being who he is, lifted his kolared neck a little higher in pride and bore it. raine tries to be like him, but fails in her attempts for she is simply not strong enough.

Thank you....for the long talks (raine really did listen..really), for the slap on the rumpus when she didn't want to do what she knew she must do, for the telling her like it is, for the making sure she is safe, for the hand holding and simply being quiet, for the teachings, for the quiet nights in camp waiting together for our Masters, for never saying what she thought she needed to hear, for understanding, for the story tellings, for never letting raine walk away, for simply.....being you sirus.

with love,
raine

A poem that raine found for you sirus.

A brother's love...

when i don't feel like feeling
or trying at all
when life is too hard
and the road is too long
when i'm broken in 100 pieces
and can't face one more mile
you put me back together
and make me smile.
--by Ashley (bluemountaincards.com)